Is It Cheating?

Okay, so I am having a bit of a problem. My new lover has been a little busy lately. He calls and texts but his wife might have been a little suspicious so he thought it would be best if we just sort of cooled it off. I was understanding of this! I really was. But I have needs! I mean if he isn’t going to take care of them, then I will. So at first I just tried masturbating. And it did the trick I really thought I could handle a sex break! That is until last night. I went out with a few of my best girlfriends. And I met up with an ex boyfriend. He was looking so hot. And every time I looked at him, my gaze would go down to his pants. It was driving me crazy. I was looking at his jeans but all I could see was his huge cock that I knew he was packing underneath his clothes. I ended up leaving the bar. ALONE! That’s right I was really going to be a good girl. That is until my ex followed me outside and offered to give me a ride home. I didn’t know how to turn him down and I was a little over trying to do the right thing. I let him drive me home and I let him come into my apartment and I let him kiss me and I let him take my clothes off and I even let him fuck my pussy! The whole time I kept thinking, this is ok. I mean my lover was probably at his own house fucking his wife, so why can’t I fuck someone too? My ex boyfriend left and the guilt came on. I felt bad. Sort of horrible. I mean was it wrong? Did I cheat, am I cheater? I mean it’s not like we are committed to each other right? I am confused, maybe you could make me feel better! You could leave me a comment on here or even call me! I would love someone elses opinion on this matter!